effort and pain are bearable and even enjoyable. the worst thing in the world is pain that has no *point*, effort expended with no satisfaction. these are the ingredients that make for the most depressing jobs in the world.

this is also why we tend to build such elaborate mountains of meaning on top of our pain. trauma that was simply trauma, that we don't somehow grow or learn from, is unbearable, so we come up with ways in which it *was worth it*

not me tho dw i've learned important lessons from all my pain